Eating is still a struggle. Well, eating good food isn't a struggle because I've been managing to consume more veggies. I contracted to purchase shares of a CSA (community supported agriculture) from June to October, I get my box every week. I am trying to use everything and let nothing go to waste. I especially love getting eggs in our share. Nothing like fresh eggs.
But I am still struggling with wanting a nice latte and chocolate chip/cream cheese muffin. Part of me wants to live a normal, non deprived life, but I realize that to lose weight I have to maintain willpower? Or do I? Will it always be so regimented? Should it be so strict? I have lost the answer to that one. The first time I lost weight, I was 20. I lost 75 lbs in 5 months. I recall that I did manage to eat a very nutritionally balanced vegetarian diet. I just don't remember if sweets or treats were included. I am inclined to say "no", but I didn't have 3 kids, who likes a mom that bakes them treats, which I almost never do now that I work outside of the home.
I don't own a mixer; so cookies, cakes and breads are done by hand. I don't have time to bake like I used to, so I feel safe from myself, but passing a bakery or coffee shop is becoming sheer torture. It is just cruel to say that I can't have something sweet. I would rather eat it and reduce my calories elsewhere or increase my exercise. And I am not talking everyday. Just when the mood strikes. Part of me feels that if I do mentally allow myself to partake, then I won't be so obsessed to partake in them . . . everyday.
Exercise has become a struggle too. I was a bit out of sorts last week. I just got back to a routine today. I got up at 5 a.m. and did the spin bike for an hour while watching a movie. I am really loving the time spent watching a movie and getting my fitness in. But running has suffered. I haven't done Yoga in about 3 weeks since starting my Summer teaching. DVDs are collecting dust. Weights? Where are those weights? Kids have been using them to exercise their puny muscles.
I am planning out my exercise calendar again. I think it is better for me to see it outlined, and then I can drag myself out of bed to do them in the early morning. I am walking a few times a week with my co-worker. There have been occasions where I have done 2 workouts a day. I've even inspired my co-worker to do more than one exercise routine a day; and she has taken up water aerobics again. Yay, me! But I need to inspire myself to work harder.
Weight: I weighed in this morning at 204. Down 4 lbs from the last 2 weeks. I can't say it is anything that I've consciously done, but I hope it doesn't go back up.
What is your philosophy or plan around a sweet treat or a high calorie dish?