Sunday, December 19, 2010
Feeling bad . . .
It seems to be my regular pattern of feelings. It doesn't seeem like much can cheer me up. I am so bummed. I went to a women's celebration, and instead of feeling cheerful and happy about a get together with wonderful women, I felt inadequate and unattractive. I resisted going. I never feel like I measure up. But because I was invited and hubby was home, I went to meet other people and be more sociable.
My mood lifted and dipped due to my meeting a very strong and determined young woman who is pregnant with her first child with Down's Syndrome; she is due this week. She and her husband have decided to have their baby despite all the "recommendations" from doctors. She knew what was best for her and her family. She understands the challenges, but sees the rewards so much more than the "negatives" (negatives that society has ingrained in us). I admire her so much, and I wish her and her hubby the best.
So I came home a bit blue. I decided that I have to lift out of the funk. My issues are so much lesser. I do have challenges, but nothing that requires self flagellation by food. I am home with the kids this week. I will be exercising everyday. I am going to eat very well-proportioned meals. And I must drink my water throughout the day. There are so many thoughts swirling.
Any suggestions for getting out of the winter/Christmas blues?