I came to the conclusion this morning that I can't workout consistently if I don't exercise at 5 a.m. There is no other time in my day, nor am I physically and emotionally capable of forcing myself to workout but at 5 a.m. And as painful as that time is, I have to bite the bullet and do it.
I have to write out my daily routine in my calendar. I have to set up the room. I have to have the DVD in the player. I have to set out my clothes. I have to set the alarm for 4:45 a.m. I have to get up when said alarm rings at 4:45 a.m. I have to drag my sorry butt down the stairs. I have to get the workout in.
School starts on Wednesday of next week. I am on vacation. But I can no longer be on a vacation from my fitness. I took a pause this afternoon, after feeling a panic attack set in; pain in my back, feeling of agitation, fearfullness. During that pause, I realized that I hadn't had a panic attack since last year. Why? Because I started working out. I made a plan for myself. I set up a routine to run a race.
Exercise has been a natural drug to combat the anxiety and depression that I get from time to time. The panic attack came on today because my son acted horribly at the mall. He is mildly autistic and wouldn't take "no, I am not going to buy you a toy, candy, frozen ice cream, t-shirt" for an answer. He became obstinate and abusive. I felt this huge sense of helplessness. Before he was diagnosed, I started running. The shock and fear of his new label was minimized because I was taking care of myself physically.
I still do damage eating wise. But I usually take comfort in the fact that I devote 45 minutes to 60 minutes to make myself stronger and build my endurance.
As difficult as it is to even think about, I will be getting up at 5 a.m. tomorrow and get on that treadmill. Ugghhh!
What time of day do you workout? What to you do to motivate yourself to workout?