Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Running Start . . .
I have 55 lbs to lose. I call myself a "fat athlete", but the truth is. I am just fat. I fake the funk. I exercise in the mornings, but I eat more calories than I burn. I still have issues with committment. I'm afraid of actually winning the fight against fat. I haven't hit rock bottom because I kid myself into thinking I am comfortable and safe to be this way.
I am hoping to lose the weight that I gained within the last 15 years since first losing 75 lbs during the summer before my junior year at University. And I am hoping that I commit to losing the 55 lbs. I can't blame it on having babies. I usually lost that weight within a few months.
The goal is to lose the weight through consistent exercises that I enjoy, such as running, circuit training, and Yoga; preparing and packing my daily meals and snacks; and journaling my journey. I want to allow myself to misstep, but I won't allow myself to give up. I am hoping that this blog can help me stop stuffing my feelings.